Great Expectation

The point of a diary is surely that you can say what you like on the page - if you believe that what you write is for your eyes only, or for others who may think this is what you believe.
I am certain you cannot have a good thing without the bad or a state of gloom without an understanding of happiness. If I am not forthright about my new life under the bed linen, it is because I have no desire to recall any of its details. In fact, I have no desire whatsoever in any sense you would expect.
I am either a cold fish or a disappointed creature thwarted in passion, unable to dream of scarlet coats, silver buckles and white silk stockings without dishonour. Nevertheless, another Sonnenburg is on the way... N.